obligation, schmobligation.

Today I feel like I'm an "Obligation"

I HATE, HATE, HATE that feeling.....do ME no favors.  If it wasn't for my beautful, wonderful, innocent two boys, I would speak my peace.

That being said, I can't.

)@(*#&$)(*%R(*@&#)($&&@#($*&@(*#&$(*@^T)(*^%_@*#&%(*@#%(^  is what I really want to say, but I can't

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......

Why do we let people affect us the way they do????

Why does it seem like some people are strong enough and or just dont care enough to speak their peace.

Why can't I be that way???

Oh well, God just help cleanse my lips, purify my heart and let my actions speak louder than my words, because right now my words are not pleasing to anyone's ears....

My God is an AWESOME GOD.....

"the steps of a righteous man (child or woman) are ordered of the Lord".......heard that before?? 


I have COUNTLESS times and until today hadn't truly witnessed it in my life, much less in my child's.


Peyton had to have a few test run at the hospital today, all came back normal by the way, but regardless...
for a 9 year old, 19 year old, 39 year old or 99 year old the hosptial can be a very spooky place.


Today it was an ultrasound and an Upper GI series.....we had the ultrasound, bingo no big deal, the GI a different story....thinking about swallowing that crap on an empty stomach didn't sound too appealing to anyone much less a 9 year old. 


We were sitting there waiting to be called back and then all of a sudden we heard his name called and when we stood up to go...low and behold there was Ms. Becky.  Peyton's face went relaxed and his shoulders showed no fear....I nearly cried at the sight of her because I knew Peyton would feel much more calm with someone he knew.


***Okay this is the awesome part.....Ms. Becky is Cooper's best friend Walker's Grandmother.  Cooper met Walker THIS year in school at ELCA....we first met Ms. Becky with Walker at karate (Walker and Peyton take lessons at the same studio) then again at Walker's bday party, she and Walker's family are the neatest thing in our life since God gave us Gran and family.  God knew when he put Walker and Cooper together that today would occur....HOW AWESOME IS THAT!!!!!!!


God knew Peyton's steps and had them ordered....today it was obvious.  I nearly cry just sitting here thinking about how awesome God really is.  Peyton did the test BEAUTIFULLY...no tears, no hesitations, or reservations.  It was a really cool day for me.  I felt God's peace and presence, just like Peyton did.


God thank you for keeping your promises to us, I am humbled once again by your Awesomeness!!

Wooohooo for me....

today Peyton had an orthodontist appointment.....I was NOT looking forward to it since the wallet is on the kinda tight side....VERY tight.

Peyton was apprehensive about it, he's just that much like me.

they called and could see us 45 mins earlier, hooray for that since we had to go over towards Southern Regional...

we get there, Dr. Hunter checks him out and says well mom, this is one beautiful mouth, I have people pay me thousands of dollars for a mouth like this. 

WOOOHOOOO i was soo happy. 

The only reason we went was the boys dentist wanted his bite looked at.  Dr. Hunter said if the gap between his two front teeth didn't close up, he could put "buttons" aka brackets on them and for 100.00 and in 6 weeks have him all fixed up.

I was rejoicing all the way back home, so was my wallet!!

Love you 2nd....

In the kitchen the other day Cooper says to me..."Mom do you know who I love 2nd?"

of course my initial thought was "I hope it's your dad" but of course I didn't say anything to the sort and asked Cooper "No honey, who do you love 2nd." and his reply was "You mommy, I love you 2nd."

I WAS CRUSHED......but then I thought..........well let's wait and see who's at the #1 spot...

so I asked, "Well Cooper who DO you love first?" and he replied "Mom I love God first, because He loves me as much as you do."

my heart melted...

Stay Tuned..........

Okay so this friday, pending NO RAIN....my sweet Cooper will be in the Homecoming Court at ELCA!!! He will be representing his 1st grade class. We are so proud of him and can't wait so......stay tuned for furter updates and pictures!!!

PARTY TIME!!

Yep it's party time at my house today........I finally did it...

this morning the bathroom scale was my friend and rendered itself to show a 25lb loss since the first of June!!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOO

I am so proud of myself....

words are hard to come by...

Now it's the dreaded last 19 to go....but hey, I'm more than half way there.

I hasn't been difficult, emotional yes, difficult no.

I can't tell you how good it feels to have my size 12's feeling loose and baggy and to top it off for the first time in I can't tell you how long I bough a size MEDIUM shirt the other day and IT FIT!! I haven't been this weight in OVER 20 years....since my highschool days.

Maybe turning 40 in March wont be so difficult after all, I just have to keep pressing towards the mark and remember that this is for me and my future and it's been TOTALLY WORTH IT.

Not to mention how sexy it makes me feel around my hubby...........but i digress :o)

The gym has actually become my friend and I love going and miss it on the days that I can't.

I NEVER though I would say those words, but I have and it feels good.

I'm so proud of myself, Thank you God for never leaving me or abandoning me and I know you never will. Thank you too for helping me during those emotional days to realize I can overcome.

Just what holiday's and vacations are ment for...

So today we were supposed to go see my grandmother, but I couldn't get in touch with her....so
onto plan number 2.

The boys haven't had a spring clean of their rooms in quite sometime so today turned out to be the day....

Three trash bags and two boxes of yard sale later, I'm a happy mom....for now.

Let's just see how long these beautiful, clean, clutter-free rooms last.

I give them til friday....

we'll see.